"Whatsitallmeanthen," indeed.. to quote James Hilllman at the start of his talk on Jung's "Red Book," quoting the poet Wisden Auden, "We are lived by powers we pretend to understand".. Astrologer, mystic, philosopher.. born a 9th house "disseminating" Capricorn Moon-Lilith, closely "squaring" my last degree natal Aries Ascendant/Libra Descendant, some tension there to say the least, between Self expression, versus "Others".. coming from my Soul-Moon-Lilith, "breaking free".. also trine my last degree 2nd house Taurus Sun, conjunct Jupiter, & Venus in Gemini, ruler of my Taurus Sun, along with the Gemini Nth Node of the Moon, all in turn ruled by Mercury, the Messenger of the Gods, in it's "Joy," rising in the house of my Ascendant, closely trine my natal 5th house Uranus-Mars-Pluto in Virgo.. all in turn opposing & opposed by my natal 11th house Saturn-Ceres-Chiron in Pisces.. also all closely in turn closely sextile & trine my natal Neptune in Scorpio, in my 7th house..